i'm supposed to be sitting in a classroom right now.. my department has arranged these sessions where i, along with other people who are having a difficult time passing this state exam.. are supposed to listen to this man read.. verbatim.. through a 500 page textbook.. it doesn't help that he has this monotonic voice that just puts you to sleep. i sat through it for about an hour yesterday and couldn't take it anymore. so here i am.. at home.. with nothing to do on a wednesday afternoon.
i really, really hope that they don't decide to check up on me or anything. the instructor doesn't take attendance. however, there are so few of us in there that it is pretty noticeable when one person doesn't show up. i suppose i could go into work.. but i don't feel like dealing with assholes today. on top of that, my supervisor will wonder why i'm back today. fuck, what if they discover that i skipped out on it? that would suck.. yes it will. i mean, i can do my own studying. it's not like the man teaches anything i can't find in the books that were given to me. i already failed this exam before. it's so effing hard and extensive. i've always had trouble with tests, man. i get this panic attack prior to starting it. they give you five hours but i rush through it because that whole setting makes me uncomfortable and i just want to get the hell out. so i have until next friday to get all this material in my head.. sigh..
i just want to be a professional poker player. sit at the tables all day, every day and hustle folks for a living. one can only dream..
welcome to the not so beautiful city of seattle. 






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