November 6, 2007

  • almost lovers..

    and just as the canopy of morning frost coating the car's window defrosts.. he melts away.. right out of my life. i had tucked away that reality of our relationship in the depths of my mind.. that he was leaving. but, his presence.. his soothing voice.. his warm embrace somehow managed to bury it. initially when i had found out that he was moving -- something planned way before we even met.. i thought to myself that this.. us.. it was something that would remain insignificant.. after all, he was my rebound, and i was his. i'd make an effort to keep my distance to prevent unpleasant happenings. i should have walked away. and of course, it didn't play out that way. and just like a fairy tale that is robbed of its happy ending.. our story proves tragedy. circumstances can be so cruel sometimes..

    i held on to that slim.. ever so slight possibility that he'd miraculously end up staying. that somehow.. somewhere along there.. his company would cancel all plans and arrangements of relocating him to a place far, far away. however, you can't interfere with the inevitable. though i continue to silently reiterate to myself that some things just weren't meant.. i wish there were an easier way. all our shared moments.. the ones that were thoroughly marinated in euphoria.. cannot compensate for this sorrowful goodbye.. not one bit.

    Goodbye, my almost lover
    Goodbye, my hopeless dream
    I'm trying not to think about you
    Can't you just let me be?
    So long, my luckless romance
    My back is turned on you
    Should have known you'd bring me heartache
    Almost lovers always do

    one week.. one week and the fog evaporates.. completely. out of sight, out of mind.. it's never been right before.. i hope it proves to be true this time.. hopefully........